Buzz Brain

It’s been quite a while since I last wrote. I’ve been struggling with a low mood that alternates with periods of “buzz brain”. The low moods make it difficult for me to concentrate enough to read or write. “Buzz brain” is what I am experiencing now. It is when my mind is hyper alert and full of ideas but they are all shouting at the same time. They get a bit jumbled and I find myself trying to act on them all simultaneously.

So earlier my buzz brain looked like this (only more so because each idea has its own subsection of ideas and tasks and thoughts of  “oh, I could….”) :

I have recently started to branch out into more visual forms of expression and am making video presentations. It’s an exiting new outlet for me. I try to get it so that the words and images complement each other. I think I am getting a little more competent with every project and I am also getting more ambitious.

I thought I’d share some of the videos I have made. I probably have to put a disclaimer in though because the images I use are “stolen” from the internet.

This is video number 3, and my favourite.

This next one was inspired by a discussion I was having about Borderline Personality Disorder. I decided that we need to raise awareness. Hopefully I have presented BPD in a way to provide an alternative to the current assumptions.  (This is video #4)

Whilst writing this I have been multi tasking. I get lots of days when I am able to do very little, so maximising the time when my brain is alert is essential. And as I struggle to write down the ideas into an action plan, I feel I have to act on them before they disappear. But often, halfway through one activity another thought forms and I’m off on another tangent…..